They say human beings are resilient, that no matter how great the pain and heartache we still manage to recover. I am not new to this. I’ve endured so much pain that I am surprised I still manage to function fully and did not delve into the pit of depression. I was betrayed by the people I loved, but never in my heart did I ever curse them, instead I prayed for them that they will find the happiness they are looking for that they did not find in me. Once, I was sitting in the bus looking outside the window, trying to hold back tears that is threatening to fall. I forgot my sunglasses, sh*t! I said to myself at the back of my head. An old lady gave her handkerchief to me, when I saw it I cried. I cried, because seeing someone else concerned look made me feel vulnerable. She said “heartache?”, I nodded. She said “Darling, just remember everything happens for a reason. If there is a need for you to get hurt for someone else to be happy, it is part of god’s plan. One day god will bless you and give you your own happiness.” I held on to those words until this day.

 

In every heartache and betrayal, I am losing a part of me; my self esteem. It takes a lot of effort and will power to rebuild it. To convince myself that I am still worthy and deserving of love that would make me believe in myself again, that I am special because I am. It will take a while for sure, but I am still holding on to the belief that one day I am still worthy to be loved by someone who appreciates every cell in my being, who adores all the aches and pains that have been left behind me and someone who will not give up on me.

 

Today, I decided to set myself free. I am shattered in the inside but I will create something beautiful from my own fragments. I’ve done this before, and I will do it again. I will not change the tide of my grief, instead, I will allow it to take me wherever it want to take me. I will embrace my sadness like my own temporary tattoo. And I will feel the pain, until it hurts no more.

Outfit Details:

Top, Earrings, Sunglasses and Shoes: H&M

Skirt: Forever 21

Bag: Michael Kors

 

 

Photos from my recent trip to Washington, DC.

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“Life should not only be lived, it should be celebrated”

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As I turned 28th I decided to make my dream birthday theme come true. I’ve never really had a themed birthday party before. I was contented in celebrating it with my loved ones with good food and good conversation, but for this year, I want to have both and more. High Tea is something that I want to try so, I promised myself that when I go to London one day, I will  try the Afternoon Tea at the Berkley. But going to London to experience it with probably just the person I will be going with, who I am not even sure would enjoy a high tea sounds challenging, so I decided to do it here in Montreal on my birthday with the closest friends I have.

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I also requested for my visitors to wear pastel or floral printed dress (no dark colored clothes allowed). I know there has been too much pressure with the dress code because not all girls are like me who likes cute, pretty, feminine stuff but I appreciate that they arrived looking gorgeous and fabulous. As for my own dress, it is not something that I just found in my closet and decided to wear. A month before my birthday, I’ve been looking for a nice pretty dress that would go well with the high tea themed party. I found the perfect dress from Light in the Box. The moment I saw it, I fell in love with it. The 3D design and floral embroidery made me look like a flower that just bloomed. Thank you Christine from Light in the Box for helping me get this dress which easily gets sold out due to high demand.

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The process in finding an Afternoon Tea place requires effort in research. I remembered listing 10 prospect tea houses then I narrowed it down to 5 before I decided to visit each place. My criteria in choosing the place are as follows. It must have:
1. A colorful, well lighted, instagrammable setting.
2. Tea wares must be ceramic, not stainless steel.
3. Spacious and private.
4. Good food choices but not pricey.
5. Location must be accessible to all attendees.

 

After much deliberation, Bar a Beurre won me over. It is the cute tea, cafe and pastry place in Old Port. When I went there to inquire about birthday party, they offered me their curated birthday package with a private room that I can rent for 4 hours. 2 weeks before my birthday, I was in constant communication with Vanessa of Bar a Beurre who helped me with my food choices and the person I’ve been bugging with so many questions. All because I want to have the best birthday ever.

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Table set up. I made the table tags myself that I am glad matches the tea set and table napkin.

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Everything went well as planned, I was over the moon, euphoric, elated when my birthday party ended. I’m so happy all my friends made it to my party. There were 11 of us and all of them are the closest friends I have here.

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Outfit Details:
Dress: Light in the Box
Shoes: Le Chateau
Earrings: Forever 21
Bracelet: Franck Herval Bijoux

 

Special thanks to Christine from Light in the Box for providing me my Birthday dress and Vanessa from Bar a Beurre for the beautiful Birthday set up.

 

Photo credits to Claire.

 

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Summer time is my most favorite time of the year, yes, says the tropical girl. I mean there is nothing more amazing than being able to play dress up because the season allows you to. I must admit that after my move to Canada, it becomes too difficult to find dresses that suits my body type or the one with the print or details that I like. Online shopping is now my favorite thing because it allows me to chose and shop the clothes that I like such as this one from Light in the Box. I am actually hoarding pink dresses for summer so stay tuned for more!

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Outfit Details:

Dress: Light in the Box
Coat: Zara
Bag: Aldo
Shoes: Le Chateau
Bracelets: Franck Herval and Lokai

 

Photo credits to: Olive Mae Bato

 

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